Why :)

I had lotsa Why(s) in me.
Why had I chosen you instead of the others?
Why must I choose this way to go instead of the others.
Why.. am I still here.

Can you show me a way.
The right way for me to go.
Tried to let go.
Tired of holding on.
Wanted to move on.

But still, something's been holding me back.
Feelings that I cant control.
I dont wanna hurt you, but instead, agony fills me.

I live to have fun.
But I guess fun was nvr the only thing that I had to live with.

I guess nobody in this world likes to be forced.
Feels like a boss and a slave at the same time.
I had a hold of you, but you controlled whatever I do.
Can you stop doing that?
And feel what I am feeling now.

Thursday! xD

Highlight(S) for the day:
- Cikgu kedapatan on9 fb di skul!
- Ermm. Skipped school?

Din go to skul today oh. It's thursday, and tomorrow's holiday also mah. So what gives.
Alang2 oh. Yesterday's holiday also. Aih.
And today's the last day for us to pass up our kad kokum? Gila.
After next week lah baru hantar that xD

Bored oh. Chat-ed with Cikgu Jeffryson in FB just now.
On9 dia di skul! xD
Pastu pndai2 lagi bilang org bf sia ahh.
Bagus kalu ko pun ponteng bah cikgu,
xpaya mau jadi ur so called "cikgu berdedikasi" tu x]

Now what ah.
My pc again bikin hal. Cant download anything.
Musics, videos, anything lah that needs me to download it.
TIDAK BOLEH!
This IDM thing will keep on popping out macam tai.
I cant download any songs ohhh.
Suffering~ :(

Yesterday, went to Coack K's house again.
Sungkai!
And this time, uncle Waq was there too.
He's a policeman. Or something like that. Millitary punya kah.
I forgot lah. He came with his motorcycle. As in yang big one that.
So cool ohh. It's 250 something2.
Hey i'm not in to motors, so u cant blame me for not knowing apa brand dia.
Then we hung out in the living room.
Coach K and uncle Waq did all the talking.
Many lah they shared. Gila oh their experiences in life x]
Hope my parents will let me go fishing with them after raya in Kuala Penyu. xD

Happy Independance Day Malaysia! xD

Uih. It's the 52nd year ady oh. Haha.
Well, gonna blog bout yesterday this :)
Jason just called oh suruh p yamcha. wakaka.

Sunday 30th of August 2009

Highlight(s) for the day:
- Ree did something that made us laughed.
- Dog crying out for help
- Dinner with Aunty Sonea and her sons in 1B
- I was afraid of the Autogate in Giant and Mark laughed. Wathaa.
- Landakman in Tanjung Aru

Went out the whole day oh today.
From 12pm till 12am. Hehe.
Around 12pm, went to CP to meet Ree, Erra and Ree's adik angkat (Russell).
The purpose I kena ajak keluar, is that Ree wants me to meet her adik angkat.
Owwwkayy.
We kinda waited for Erra and Russell for quite a while.
But then, Erra din came and Russell just hung with us for like, a few minutes. Haha.
Nevermind lah that, coz without them, Ree has a lot of stuffs to talk bout,
and me, as usual, I just listen and smile :)
Before that, we bowled juga lah. Belanja-ed Ree. Haha.
Then we went to Mcd to tapau her foods. I bought fries xD
But still, BK's fries is the best! x]

Then around 4, Ree went home and I lepak2 sana tempat bowl.
Watched those Sukan Teras punya people train for a while and I went down to find a taxi.
Goin to mom's office in Bev Hills.
Cool oh the taxi. With monitors somemore. The songs, makes you goyang kepala oh.
The speed of the car lagi. Haha.
The driver? Well, highlighted hair and lotsa piercings and blings.
Kalah2 my piercings. I only have a pair. Haha.
Daddy said jangan syok2 sana. Kalu kena bawa p satu tempat and kena rogol, syok kan?
Pa lah him. Joy killer lah you! Haha.

When I reached mom's office. Boring lah as usual. But ok lah juga.
My weight suda tambah oh.
It was 52.5kg before. Now it's 53.4kg. Haha. Yayy~
Went home around 6 something. Mau dekat 7pm ady that.
Dad's not home. Went out maybe.
Changed my blouse and mom, doin her own business.
Then, we went to fetch my mom's friend in Ridgeview, Aunty Sonea and her sons.
Mark and Nick. Cute kids! Haha.

Actually, mom wants me to meet Jack, Aunty Sonea's eldest son.
Aunty Sonea and his husband wants us to meet each other juga konon.
The night before that, Jack actually came to our house wanted to meet me, but I was in Tuaran that day, doin the charity thing. Was shocked when my mom told me that. Haha.
But then, we didnt get the chance to meet coz he had a birthday party to go to lasnite. Wakaka.

Aunty Sonea was like, awwww, next time lah kan.
And i was like, Thank God.
What?.... Your mom is trying to find you a boyfriend,
and your aunty and uncle agreed on introducing their son to you.
What would you feel if you were in my shoes?
Huh huh huh? Think bout it. Haha.

Ok, then, we all went to 1B for dinner loh. Hee.
On the way there, somewhere near Likas, I heard something bah.
This dos punya voice yg macam kena pukul like that.
I was searching for the voice and when I turned back, I saw the dog.
Lyin down oh the road. Was like, struggeling and suffering oh.
Betul2 kesian ni.
I told everyone in the car and nobody knew.
Mark was like "I thought it was a cat meowing oh".
What lah him.

Nick's so cute oh! He's a 7 year old kid. Doesnt talk much.
Erm. Something like, he's slow.
My mom said he's a bit slow to catch up things.
He understands what you say, but he wont answer you.
He'll only nod his head and give you this innocent look.
CUTE OH! Haha.

Mark, he's a form 1 kid.
Matured looking oh.
Reminds me of Jonah when I 1st saw him.
I thought we were in the same form, but he was just in form1 that time, and I was in form3.
Haha.
OK, back to Mark.
He's matured looking, very friendly. Kalah2 me oh.
He's even matured in talking and maybe, his mind also matured suda. Haha.
I thought he was in form4 when I 1st saw him. Haha.

We parked and went down. Went to Mcd for dinner.
Alala. McD lagi. Haha.
We were full oh. Like, cant telan the foods ady coz there were some leftovers.
So we tapau-ed them loh.
Mom gave Mark and I rm50 each oh.
Then Aunty Sonea pula wanna gove me rm50 lagi.
Haha. If lah everyday like this. Kaya oh me! Wakaka.
But I didnt took her money lah :D
Murah hati ah people nowadays :)

Mom bought lotsa towels in Giant for her facial thingy.
Mark took everything oh.
Gentleman ni budak. I'll intro my junior frenz to him. Good oh that kid. Haha.
After doin some shoppin, we decided to go home.
It was 10 something ady when we went in the car. So fast oh. Haha.
Then mom was like, wanna go to Tanjung Aru for some fruit juice?
We were like, ok, mana2 ja. Haha.

So many people oh in Tanjung Aru.
Crowded ni. Got lagi this tiba2, got people shout bah.
Then we looked kan, and we saw this guy, with a LANDAK-ish hairstyle.
You know landak, porcupine. Haha. That lah. Eee.
In his hand was the Malaysian flag. Semangat jo.
Baru ja i teringat, an hour more to go and it's Independace Day! Haha.

We bought some mangoes and jambu.
No fruit juice pun. I think they might have forgotten bout it. Haha.
There's a lot of people walking/playing along the seashore.
Nice lah.
Mom, Aunty Sonea and Mark were talking and laughing and I just smiled lah. Haha.
Nick was very quiet. He just stared at us. Playing the flash thing he bought earlier in 1B.
He has his own world there :)

Few more minutes before the clock strikes 12, we went back and on our way to the car,
Mark called and said "Cathy look. Doraemon in the sky. Hehe"
He pointed. And I saw the doraemon. Haha. Balloon bah that. Terlepas.
Sent them back home and mom and I went home.
Exhausted. But I sure had lotsa fun that night :)

DCB I love you xD

Saturday evening 29th of August 2009

Highlight(s) for the day:
- Charity
- Singing in van
- Hot burger in BK.

Jas called me around 3 something and reminded me that today there's this charity thing in her church and will fecth me around 5 :)
It was fun.
When I came, people were staring. [The horror]
I sticked with Jas the whole time. Haha.
Inside the hall thing, it was full with plastic bags with foods/clothes in it.
And people were busy talking to each other.
Moments later, the youth leader told us to gather around and divided us into 4 groups.
I was in the same group as Jas and the youth leader. Hee.
The 4 different locations were Tuaran, Tanjung Aru, Donggongon and The Hill behind Sacred Heart.
I was in Tuaran. The furthest among the 4 locations. Lucky me huh :)

Well, after that, we all hopped into the van and we're off.
There were 9 of us. 2 boys, 6 girls and aunty. Haha.
We practised singing this chinese worship song, and no, I dont know the lyrics.
All I know was the chorus part "zu man shen, alellujah~" Haha.
We repeated it lots of times and was singing it with such spirit that people will stare at us if they heard us.
But the speed of the car was a bit fast and I dont think anybody would've care if they heard us neways.

Funny thing is, as the car slows down, our volume slows down too and eventually stopped.
Traffic Jam.
We turned the other way around on the same road. Cool~
People in cars were staring, but the youth leader didnt give a D.
For a youth leader, he's a pretty wild person on the road :D
So, we took a shortcut and reached this kampung2 area.
One of the girl in the car said "that chicken is ugly. Seriously"
And we all looked at the chicken.
It was a kampung chicken. What can I say. Haha.

You know what, 1st we were like in a city area, and then suddenly we reached in this kampung2 area where you, yourself would think that the city is far farrrrr away from this place.
The place was really, really, like, undiscoverd this.
And the next thing you know, an apartment that can be called a skyscraper popped outta nowhere.

Sepanjang perjalanan kami.... Sehhh~
Ok, we saw lotsa things that made us go "WOW"
Politeknik in Sepangar was HUGE. Seriously. You can fit the whole sabah people in it.
Ok, that was a bit over.
But really lah, BESAR GILA TU TEMPAT~ sakai ni. Hee.

Neways, we saw this river too.
That one really made us go "WWOOOOOOWWWW"
It's really nice oh. The view. We were like on a bridge thing and below us was the river.
Man. I didnt even know that the place existed oh.
I should really go and explore Sabah more lah. Cantik bah Sabah. Ko ingat! xD

When we reached this paddy field area, something stinks.
Smells like Ikan masin oh.
Soon, we reached Tuaran. Haha.
We stopped in front of this house. It was quite big you know.
Everyone of us thought that we got the wrong house. But nop. That was it.
Ok, you have a house that's like a wooden banglo, and you got 5 cars with 3 fierce dogs barking at strangers,
do you think you got the right house to do charity work?
Not what lah. But what I got in mind was a bit different from what I saw.
I expected it to be smaller. Ermm. Yea.
What youth leader told us was,
"leave everything. We dont have to give the oil, clothes and rice.Just bring down the canned foods. Our generousity might turn into insulting the family "

He was right alright.I think what she (aunty Teo) needed was not something that we can give her financially.



[Will update soon.]

FirstimeS xD

Friday night 28th of August 2009

Highlight(s) for the day :
- UP!
- Shisha~
- Daddy's showin off his smoke :P

Went to cinema to watch UP. Haha.
Finally oh! Nasib juga I can watch UP oh kan.
Daddy came and fetch me lah around 7sumtin.
Horn horn and complain complain sana.
Plus poking you while driving and is always blur on directions.
BAHAYA oh.
This lah this nowadays punya budak.
Undisciplined betul :P
I wonder how you got your license xD

Actually, he was planning to go shisha only bah.
But, aih, I wanna watch UP.
Since he said I cant go watch it with my friends, had to find a time to watch with him lah.
Then discuss punya discuss, he suggested to watch movie after shisha. But it would be late by then.
Then blablabla. Both agreed to watch lah before shisha. Haha.
7.55pm that.
On the way to hall 6, saw Aubrey!
He was blur the 1st time I waved at him, duno lah why. Hee.
But I know he was from bowling. As usual. What else do we do in CP.
Bowling loh kan :D

Neways, UP was nice :D :D :D
Except for the part where some people keep on poking you.
Duno lah who kan xD
UP - kid's cute. oldman's cool. dog's funny. bird's loves chocolate? :]

Owwkay. After movie, we went to JP loh.
Apa lagi. Shisha :D
So many people oh.
I have issues with big crowd/lots of people/unkwown people around me.
I dont know why. But that's me.

It was my 1st time oh shisha.
Dont wanna try that thing, but someone just had to make me hisap that thing.
Plus blackmailing oh.
1st few times were ok lah. Got chock lah, but nothing much.
But when I was told to suck that thing harder kan, trus I can feel ni something in my throat.
Like, got pasir2, or something like that. I duno how to explain lah.
Got this sweet flav. Ok lah also.
Hey, it was my 1st time. What do you expect from a noobie like me. Haha.
Daddy was showing off his smokes. xP

Someone illegaly took my IC pic.
And no, I didnt had any plastic surgery okay :P
We got bet bah kan what time I'll arrive home daddy?
Mine's 11.50pm, yours was 11.55pm kan.
I won ohh. 11.47pm that! xD

Slamming doors! xD

I was born on a Tuesday and since my birthday...
I've been living for 17 years
I've been living for 204 months
I've been living for 890 weeks
I've been living for 6,232 days
I've been living for 149,573 hours
I've been living for 8,974,430 minutes
I've been living for 538,465,814 seconds
I've breathed more than 85,000,068 times!
I've blinked my eyes more than 90,100,068 times!
My heart has beaten more than 628,210,100 times!

That was my result when I did this quiz thing in FB. haha. wow~
Neways, it's been 4 days since I last updated my blog. woohoo~


Tuesday 25th of August 2009
Highlight(s) for the day:
- Crazy score in Bowling! (X) xD
- 1st time to bazaar ramadan
- 1st time to buka puasa with bowling people :D

2 days ago, went to tuition in Cekal.
Then, watched I love you Beth Cooper!
Silly movie.
Ok bah juga Aubrey. Haha.

After that, hung out in CPS Bowl.
And played bowling.
Gila! I duno what happened to me, but damn, i felt eyy yo gooooood~
Kan aubrey? HAHA.
Bowling was awesome. But only for that day.
It was my lucky day I guess? Hehe.

Around 5 sumtin, we went to bazaar.
That's when the fun part begins.
It was my 1st time to bazaar ramadan. Syok oh.
Was quite hot. But worth it.
A lot of foods oh.
From kuih(s) to martabak(s) to satay(s) to fried stuffs to..... more lah. Hee.
We tapau-ed a lot. I bought 20 chicken satays oh. Haha.

Ok, after that, we went back to CPS Bowl and went in to KK dart.
Aubrey and I felt awkward coz it's our 1st time, and the people in there were.....
well, not that close to us. Haha.
But what gives, we went in also.
6.30+ and we buka puasa. I forgot who baca doa.
I think it was coach K? Nvm. Hee.
It was my 1st time oh buka puasa. Cool~


Wednesday 26th of August 2009
Highlight(s) for the day:
- went bowling with Natalie

Yesterday, I thought it was goin to be another boring day for me.
I'm gonna stay at home.
Count the hours/days, like those who are in prison.
But my thought's wrong. Haha.
Natalie sms-ed me and asked "Free kah now?"
Mau bawa me go bowl pula.
She's been asking to play with her yesterday, but i was tired bah.
Played 3 games ady, then she baru come. Haha.

So, she fetched me few minutes before the clock strikes 1pm.
We bowled for like, an hour only oh. Haha.
3 games each. Hehe.
Score sucks lah compared to Tuesday. Huhu.


TODAY
Highlight(s) for the day:
- somethin terrible happened and God gave me few seconds to feel what blind people feels.
Darkness.

Stayed at home the whole day. Boring gila jo.
Sumtin happend though.

Daddy's comin back from peninsular later. Haha.
Welcome home daddy~
Smell the fresh air of Sabah.
Kiss the land when you stepped down from the plane will you? :D

Paulie! :D

bahHighlight(s) for the day
- Paulie!

My weekend was... Boring.
Talk bout suffering, rotting, dying~

Yesterday? Hmm. Was at home the whole day.
Watched cartoons in the morning.
The Land before time :D
Phineas and Ferb! and their pet, Perry, the platypus xD
Watched this Beverly Hills Chihuahua, Kevin borrowed me last Friday.
Funny oh that x]
Then, went to bed around 4 sumtin in the evening.
Woke up around 7++.
Took my bath, ate dinner a.k.a WA TAN HO, while watchin The Mentalist!
Nice show ohh. It's like CSI lah, but of course, a bit different.
It's humourous yet misterious at the same time. Ambe ko :D
After that, I online-d and checked my Farm. Haha.
Harvest. Harvest. Harvest!

Today. Spent the day at home, too.
Watched Martha Stewart show.
Jackie Chan's Adventure. High 5. Spongebob Squarepants. Tom and Jerry tales. Ellen & Edgar.
Cooking shows. Fashion shows.
Can you see how bored I am??

Anyways, there's this movie called "Paulie".
Watched it at 3pm di TV2. Hehe.
It's bout a parrot searching for his owner coz they were seperated for some reason.
He never gave up. Not a single day did he ever think of giving up.
Though it took him years and went through obstacles.
When he met his owner who used to be a lil girl, and he didnt recognised her,
a simple song made him know that it was her.
A lullaby the girl's mother used to sing for her called "Marie".

Oh yea, the girl's name was Marie Alweather.
It was Marie Alweather all the way in that movie.
Who'd ever thought that they were both seperated for years.
I thought it was only months.
But thanks to Misha (a Russian guy who worked as a garbage collecter in this lab thing),
he made Paulie (the parrot) talked and shared his stories.
He let Paulie out of his cage after he was locked up by this evil scientist. I dislike him.
And that's it for the sinopsis. Hehe. You should watch the movie yourself.
Touching + funny.

Huhh~
Daddy told me to write bout him oh.
Dasar. Haha.
He's in KL now. Shopping. And told me he saw an Adult Shop just now. Lol.
Dont forget to buy my sunset or maybe rainbow undies k daddy. HAHA.
Neways, he spent the whole day walking here and there.
Same goes for yesterday. Lots of complaints lah that guy.
Ate dimsum for breakfast this morning oh. X belanja me lagi. Selfish :P
He complained his hotel was like a 1st star hotel. BURUK was his comment.
Besides complaining, all he got in his mind was SHISHA.
Nothing but shisha. Mau bring me go shisha waa. NEVER~ hehe.

Dinner for the day
- Dad's herbal chicken soup
- Aunty Sonea's spagetti :D

Wanna noe what I ate today?
- Fish mee soup
- drank 100 plus
- Icecream
- The biscuit, dont know what you call that
- Chicken rice
- Icecream
- Oreo
- Ice cream again
- Dad's herbal chicken soup
- Spagetti

What an appetite :D