Why :)

I had lotsa Why(s) in me.
Why had I chosen you instead of the others?
Why must I choose this way to go instead of the others.
Why.. am I still here.

Can you show me a way.
The right way for me to go.
Tried to let go.
Tired of holding on.
Wanted to move on.

But still, something's been holding me back.
Feelings that I cant control.
I dont wanna hurt you, but instead, agony fills me.

I live to have fun.
But I guess fun was nvr the only thing that I had to live with.

I guess nobody in this world likes to be forced.
Feels like a boss and a slave at the same time.
I had a hold of you, but you controlled whatever I do.
Can you stop doing that?
And feel what I am feeling now.